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| My daughter Syd and neice Kaitlin on our recent trip to Disney. Just keep reading.....the picture will make sense I promise! |
But worthy of what? Worthy of being scammed? Of bring lied to? Of being used?
We recently found out that our PEM planned the whole thing. As in, she planned to let us THINK we would be adopting Maggie but all the while KNOWING we would leave empty handed.
I don’t know all the details nor do I NEED to know all of the details.
But it does leave me feeling a bit like Alice following that naughty little rabbit. At first, adoption seems so easy and straight forward.. But like Alice, we quickly learn all is not as it seems.
Before we can formulate enough good sense to turn back, we find ourselves skidding down a steep hole with nothing to grab hold of and nothing to do but land at the bottom of the pit, dust ourselves off and keep following that sorry excuse for a rabbit.
We are offered an unlimited number of doors to open and treats to taste, all promising to provide the remedy we so desperatly seek. But what we seek is a way back home, a way back to a world that is familiar and where all is right.
So here we are…. back at the beginning of this crazy journey. But thankfully we are not following a pesky white rabbit but rather a noble rescuer who promises to deliver.
"Yahweh will fulfill that which concerns me; your loving kindness, Yahweh, endures forever. Don't forsake the works of your own hands"
Psalm 138:8 (World English Bible)Stay Tuned…..
Here is me checking into the hopsital on the first day. Our PEM had been induced just a few hours earlier and we were arriving with gifts in hand. I am sharing all the details of our 3 day ordeal so check back!
5 comments:
I can NOT believe she planned the whole thing... What a sick'o.. We are praying that soon you will hold a sweet baby in your hands that will belong to your family!!! There are good people in the world, don't give up hope!
I am so sorry and I will be praying for your family. I just came and am backtracking a bit through your blog. I'm happy to hear about how God has provided and what a clear message from Him that He has something in store. Praying that He reveals it to you soon. Hugs.
Boy can I resonate with this post.. Thank you for your post on my blog by the way.. it truly encouraged me.
We are on our second adoption journey right now. I don't know if our journey would help or hurt right now, you decide, but I have the whole thing chronicled here: http://moseyphotography.blogspot.com/search/label/Evie%27s%20story
of course the end is up first so you'll have to scroll to the beginning if you think you want to read it.
There is nothing like the grief you are dealing with right now, it IS equal to a death and I just want to encourage you to grieve it and not feel guilty for doing so.
Hugs to you... I am here if you want to talk: mosey@moseyphotography.com
Hey there. I am so sorry to hear what happened recently - i read back a few posts too and I hurt for you guys. I came over to say "hi!" and thanks for stopping by and for your words of encouragement to me and I had no clue what you are going through.
Praying you will See Him clearly and feel Him today. Bless you.
I want to thank you so much for putting into words what my heart cannot. We, too, had a failed adoption. Our circumstances were a little different, due to it being an international adoption, but my heart ache is the same.
After seeing pictures, giving a name, sending care packages, circumstances out of our control resulted in a failed adoption. The little one who I had called daughter for many months, was no longer ours.
So, thank you again for being honest and open. Every word echoes the cry of my heart. God is good and in His timing, and in His way, He WILL get the glory!
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