Today

Gosh, I was convicted today.

 Today, I remembered how easily I can forget what is really important in my life.

Today, I remembered that it really doesn't matter that I can't fit into my clothes the way that I want to, or that we are still stuck paying medical bills instead of spending our money the way we want to or even that I still can't seem to find time to make new pillows for my living room.

Nope, Today, I remembered that the most important things in my life are not really "things" at all.  I know this because Today I remembered what it feels like to have your own life taken away from you.  To sit as a bystander in your own world, forced to long for what you do not have.

So what did I miss when I had my life taken from me for nearly a year?  Sometimes it is easier to tell you what I did not miss, what I did not long for, what I did not beg God for.

I did not miss my perfect appearance, my size 4 clothes or getting the perfect hair cut.  I did not long for bigger closets, a new kitchen table or money to go on vacation.

Today, I remembered that what I most missed, what I most longed for and what I most begged God for were the simple, day to day activities of life.  The things that are easy for me to take for granted...even after living without them.

I wanted to take Sydney to the grocery store and to teach her how to bake cookies.  I wanted to sit and enjoy a movie with my man or watch as my little girl delighted herself in learning something new.  I wanted to laugh with friends, go to bible study or help a friend in need.

Today, I was reminded of what really matters, of what really brings me joy. 

Here were my moments, my treasures from today. These are my riches, the way that I have been blessed.

Eating lunch at my daughter's princess table (even though I had to pray the whole time the chair wouldn't bust underneath me)

Squealing with delight at the grocery store because we were able to score a "green" race car cart (usually they have only blue left)

Sitting and watching Sydney make a pink and green necklace to give to her daddy when he got home from work.

Answering the question "why" over and over and over and over.I just don't know why the tiger in the Jungle Book is mean?!

You see these are the things that just two years ago, I could not do.  These are the things that for a whole year I longed to do. These are the things that I prayed and begged God to let me do.

So Today, I am thankful that God reminded me of darker days.  Not so that I can stay in the depths of a dark place but so that I can walk in the light of the truth and really live!   Just for Today, I will choose to ignore the lies of this world that tell me I need more money a bigger house, the perfect body or more time to myself to be truly happy. Today I will remember what is really important!

What will you remember Today?  What brings your soul joy?  I bet that if you made a list, it would not be things or status or money.  So what are you waiting for?  Make a list.  It will change your perspective, it will give you riches you never knew you had!

                            Do you need a little inspiration on why to love the mundane things of life?  You can read about my story, HERE at A Year of Searching for Help.