Why is Grace so hard for me?

Today, I realized just how hard it is for me to accept God's grace.  The grace that says I am of great worth!

You see, I spend a lot of time "working" to figure out my unique talent in life.  (just read the title of my blog!) The big mysterious talent that will one day make me special and give me worth far above all others.  (just keepin' it real people!)

But today, God once again saved me from myself!    He picked me up out of a muddy pit, a pit of lies continually screaming, "You must WORK to be special.   You must PUT IN YOUR TIME to have worth.  You must STRUGGLE, you must BEG, you must TRY HARDER!"  And he placed my feet upon a new rock, the rock of truth.

Today, God whispered (as only he can do) something profound to me.  He told me to stop working.  He told me to stop searching.  It was as if God held out his royal septor to me (as only a King can do)  and asked me to accept what had already been given to me:

My Worth

By God's unfathomable grace I am already deemed worthy.  It's not something I can work for and it's not something that God is trying to keep from me.  I only have but to accept the truth.   

And the truth is this:
1. He picked me out of the crowd and made special plans for me.  Plans that will bring him glory.
(Ephesians 1: 11)

2. Before I was born, God planned specific tasks for me to accomplish.  And the best part?  He has already equipped me with the talent to accomplish said tasks!
(Ephesians 2: 10)

So why am I trying so hard to find my talent or to be talented?  According to God, I already possess purpose and I am already gifted. 

So it really comes down to one question.  Do I believe what God says is true? 

Lord God, please help my unbelief today!  Please help me to activly believe you in this area. 

"You are saved, not because of what you do, but because of what Christ did.  And you are special, not because of what you do, but because of whose you are.  And you are His."
~ Max Lucado from In the Grip of His Grace