I really wanted to tell you about our recent adventure to meet Leroy the rooster and all of his fair maidens, but alas that great tale will have to wait for yet another day. My mind is pre-occupied and I can't turn off the plaquing thoughts. Just like a pigeon who happened upon a half eaten carton of fries, I can't stop asking myself one simple question:
How is this possible?
How is it possible that in the last two weeks,
Is this what it feels like to be a house on the market?. Strangers constantly walking within your space, making rash judgements based on out-dated landscape or too brightly colored walls.
And just like the realtor assures you that "it just wasn't the right fit" so our adoption coordinator tells us the same thing. And maybe the birth moms didn't turn us down as much as they just choose someone else. But is it really different?
I mean, I don't have out-dated decor or dingy diggs...there must be some mistake! Oh Lord, please bring us the right
Sharee,
ReplyDeleteI have a huge heart for adoption and hope to someday have a house full of ex-orphans. I have been following your journey and am so excited for you.
I fully believe that we have an Encouraging God. Though it doesn't feel that way now, I pray that you can see that He is encouraging you by having two birth moms look at your family scrapbook. He is showing you that He is powerful and He can bring you someone else to love, someone else to mother.
I also fully believe that not just any baby will work for your family (or any other family). God is creating the PEFECT family member for you right now. Your child has a face and a name and God knows that precious child. I know that the hardest part of trusting God for me is the Waiting. I hope it offers you comfort knowing that your baby is in the care of God, and that God will deliver that child to you in His perfect time.